Have you ever prayed to God that your mother leave your father? I have. Have you ever cried, begged, and pleaded with God that he either end your life or change your home situation? I have.
My childhood was anything but perfect and I’ve sort of touched base on that in my first published book. However, even then I wasn’t completely honest. I was scared to share the complete truth so I hid behind scripture and published a small book about God’s love. While I don’t regret publishing it because, come on, I published a book, I do regret not being vulnerable.
Well, I’m vulnerable now. I’m the truth-teller now. I am working on being open and sharing my life, as I work on writing my second book.
The quote that is guiding me through this writing process is from Anne Lamott:
“You own everything that happened to you. Tell your stories. If people wanted you to write warmly about them, they should’ve behaved better.”
I’m finally ready to share it all. 100% the truth. I’m not going to let fear take over. I’m not going to let my dad ruin another piece of my life. I’m owning my stories and will be sharing everything. Not out of anger or to “get back” at him, but to finally have closure. I want to be free of this weight I’ve carried.
Friends, I’m sorry if this makes you uncomfortable. In a world where Trump is president, where war and hatred has spread, the last thing you want is your social media filled with another one of these stories.
But hear me, this will not be a pity party story. This will be a story of how I rose above it. This will be a story of how I broke the cycle of abuse. This story will have a happy ending. It will have a happy ending because I have chosen to find the good in my life.
I hope you’ll come with me on this journey.
Hopefully this will be published in 2018, so make sure to subscribe if you’d like to stay updated on the process of the book.
I can’t wait for you to read it.
And thank you, for your love and support.