My relationship with God has been suffering lately. I feel distant, as if God isn’t within arms reach anymore.
An article from Changing the Face of Christianity listed three ways why one would feel disconnected from God and two are as follows:
- We treat God the same way Aladdin treats the Genie. Calling on Him only when we need something.
- We are too busy for God.
When I was reading Discerning the Voice of God, it was as if Pricilla (the author) was sitting next to me on the couch as I read, “Maybe you can’t hear God because you aren’t listening.”
Life has gotten in the way of my relationship with Him. It has been a very long, stressful, emotional past few years and as more trials were put in front of me, I unconsciously chose to try to fix them myself without giving some of that burden to God.
I tried fixing my mom’s battles, I tried fixing my husband’s depression as he struggled with job loss, I tried fixing my grandma’s battles, I tried fixing my Nana’s knack for negativity, I tried physically fixing my grandfather’s dementia with diet changes…
I have a habit of trying to fix things. I’m a people-pleaser and I just want to see my friends and family experience peace and joy.
But in the middle of my fixing, I became broken. I didn’t rely on God and didn’t confront issues that rose within me.
Today, I still have the urge to fix, but am re-learning how to send my urges over to God. He still feels far away, but I’m grateful I know I to move closer to Him and it’s my dream that I’ll be even closer than I was before things started to fall apart.
“Behold, I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears My voice and opens the door, I will come in to him and dine with him, and he with Me” -Revelation 3:20