Expectations | Poetry

smile.

he expects it.

 

lie.

he demands it.

 

pretend.

an unspoken command.

 

abide.

he says it’s what’s deserved.

 

control is what he craves.

shots called out like he’s the bailiff

 

and you’re the prisoner.

smile.

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Scripture For Encouragement

“A father to the fatherless, a defender of widows, is God in his holy dwelling.” -Psalm 68:5

“Even if my father and mother abandon me, the Lord will hold me close.” -Psalm 27:10

“But those who won’t care for their relatives, especially those in their own household, have denied the true faith. Such people are worse than unbelievers.” -1 Timothy 5:8

“The Lord protects the strangers; He supports the fatherless and the widow; But He makes crooked the way of the wicked.” -Psalm 146:9

 “He ensures that orphans and widows receive justice. He shows love to the foreigners living among you and gives them food and clothing.” -Deuteronomy 10:18

He gives prosperity to the poor and protects those who suffer.” – Job 5:11

“Yet I am confident I will see the Lord’s goodness while I am here in the land of the living. Wait patiently for the LordBe brave and courageous. Yes, wait patiently for the Lord.” -Psalm 27:13-14

“Don’t be afraid, for I am with you. Don’t be discouraged, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will hold you up with my victorious right hand.” –Isaiah 41:10

“I have told you all this so that you may have peace in me. Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows. But take heart, because I have overcome the world.”-John 16:33

And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them.”-Romans 8:28

No, despite all these things, overwhelming victory is ours through Christ, who loved us. And I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from God’s love. Neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither our fears for today nor our worries about tomorrow—not even the powers of hell can separate us from God’s love.” –Romans 8:37-38

“All praise to God, the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ. God is our merciful Father and the source of all comfort.” -2 Corinthians 1:3

Gluten-Free Blueberry Banana Bread

Hi friends! I’m just popping in to share an easy recipe that my son and I made together yesterday. It was easy to prepare & very tasty. Perfect when paired with a cup of tea or coffee.

The only reason I made it in the first place is because we had a lot of very ripe bananas and the store had a wonderful sale on blueberries.

Enjoy!

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I’m Running 200 Miles for Domestic Violence Awareness | Mile 50 Update | #Running4Her

Hi friends! If you didn’t know, I’m running 200 miles for domestic violence awareness & I’m sharing my first official update today.

I’ve been advocating against domestic violence since 2015, a cause close to my heart due to the struggles I endured through childhood. In 2017, when my mom needed help leaving my abusive father, the local shelter, Friends Inc, went above and beyond to help her heal.

I started this #Running4Her challenge to not only thank Friends Inc. for their services to the people within my community by raising money for them, but I also wanted to use this as an opportunity to bring awareness for this epidemic.

Domestic violence can take the form of physical, emotional, financial, and sexual abuse. 5 million children are exposed to domestic violence per year, 85% of domestic violence victims are female,  2,141 women were murdered last year by a current or former partner (for comparison, 2,996 people died in the WTC – 9/11 attack), (See more statistics here or here)

Click HERE to read the specifics of my challenge or learn how to participate/volunteer/donate.

Running Update

My last update was when I hit mile 11 which you can read HERE. I have to be honest, I had a difficult time getting miles in with the cold weather. After my first mile update was shared and the support for #Running4Her grew larger, I felt a little overwhelmed. There was a lot of excitement with the goal I created for myself, which lead to many asking me for t-shirts, posters, etc.

It proved a little difficult to run & manage the social aspect of my fundraiser, so I asked for my mother to help. Thanks to her, there are a bunch of flyers around the Washington County area, including the Slinger Piggly Wiggly. She also donated homemade skincare products to one of my sponsors, Salon Effervescence, to offer to their clients in exchange for a small monetary donation. They also are collecting donations for the Friends Inc. wishlist. A huge thank you to Diane and all of the other sponsors who’ve been so supportive!

As for actually running, once the sidewalks were thawed, I was able to really pound some pavement. I took my 2-year-old son along for some of the runs, but honestly, I really enjoy running solo.

I’ll post my next update when I reach 100 miles, which I’m hoping will come fairly easy considering the weather.

Fundraising Update

A  milestone I want to celebrate is the fact that not only have we almost reached my $1,000 goal, many of the #Running4Her supporters have decided to support this cause by running with me. In their own time, they have decided to tally their own miles run and raise awareness on their personal social media.

If you’d like to donate running miles yourself, you’re more than welcome to join in…even if you live in another state.

As of today, we’ve gotten $735 in donation pledges & 37 running miles have been donated by supporters.

Follow my running updates on Facebook.

Buy a T-Shirt

I’ve been asked a few times, but I didn’t want to personally deal with the hassle of bulk ordering, biting the cost of printing, and distributing anything. After some research, I’ve chosen to use Bonfire.com to sell some t-shirts, a platform for individuals to fundraise in a unique way.

My Bonfire campaign is 21 days long, starting today (ending June 8th). I need to sell a minimum of 5 shirts or Bonfire won’t print and ship them. If the minimum isn’t reached, my t-shirt campaign simply ends and no one gets charged. Orders would arrive between June 17th and June 26th, directly to your address.

I love the comfort and quality of the shirt & the ability to pick a different color. If you’re not a t-shirt person, there is also an option to purchase a hoodie or tank top instead. Sizes available in XS to 3XL

Check out Bonfire & purchase a #Running4Her shirt HERE.

Other Ways to Support

  • Write a check payable to “Friends Inc.” (memo, #Running4Her) & mail to:
    FRIENDS, Inc. PO Box 117 West Bend, WI 53095
  • Donate via by visiting the Friends Inc. website. (add #running4her to the note before submitting)
  • Most shelters like Friends Inc rely on wish list fulfillment, like shampoo, clothes, diapers, and toilet paper. Click here see what there current need isWish List items may be dropped off at Salon Effervescence (55 E Sumner St, Hartford, WI 53027)
  • Raise awareness of domestic violence by sharing #Running4Her on social media.
  • Donate your time to Friends Inc. in Washington County– Volunteer as a Sexual Assault Victim Advocate, babysitter, structured childcare, or grocery shopper. (if you are not in the area, click here to find a local women’s shelter closest to you)
  • Join me in running! Log and share the hours run on your regular running route or treadmill. Feel free to raise money for Friends Inc. or the domestic violence charity of your choice.

Sponsors

 

Thank you for all of your love & support. Read about the specifics of my challenge HERE and subscribe to receive updates.

Prayers For You | Book Review

Sometimes I have a difficult time shopping for gifts for the loved ones in my life. I usually find the gift of a book to be a safe bet for most people, however, I know not everyone loves to read or has the time to.

That’s why I was really excited about this Prayers For You book – specifically made with those trickier people in mind.

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An Ordinary Evening

Tonight, I feel a cold coming on, the itchy throat I told my mother-in-law I was positive it was spring allergies.

My husband decides to cancel our plans to watch the second Ant-Man movie and go to bed early. He wanted to watch the last released Marvel movies in preparation for Endgame.

I decide to browse the Internet while watching Brain On Fire, as he chooses to watch sports before bed. All is normal in the home that we live in, still sharing space with my in-laws, collecting the pieces from a rough few years.

Job loss. Death. Postpartum anxiety & depression. Car accident. Lawyers. Doctors. PTSD. Therapy. In-home therapy. The list goes on.

Things have finally settled into a routine, we both have jobs. My son starts school this fall. He and I have a long bucket list of things we want to do this summer. We might even try Geocaching. Next week, I hopefully can paint my sons room from the golden yellow it is now to white.

My husband and I celebrate 5 years of marriage this year. I want to renew our vows and get new family photos.

I’m on, I think 38 miles of my #Running4Her trek to raise awareness for domestic violence. I’ve reached out to State Representatives. I’ve drafted an initiative to protect police families. I’ve written three books, two published. If only the little girl sobbing in her closet could see what I’m doing now.

More often than I’d like, ‘he’ pops into my mind. Sometimes I willingly bring him into my mind, but most of the time, he just invades my thoughts. It’s been two years since we last spoke, and many years since a happy memory that’s worth remembering.

So, tonight, when my movie was over and I was about to get up to brush my teeth, I got a notification to check my messages and found I missed a message from him, originally sent two days ago. I couldn’t bear to read the entire short message, so I handed it off to my husband to read for me. He wants to talk, I believe, is the summary of the message.

My first instinct, what I’ve always done, is to jump back in wholeheartedly. I’d love nothing more but to respond, but I have a family to protect, and myself as well. He’s always broken my heart, with every chance I’ve freely given. We’ve reconciled so many times, only for me to learn that it’s usually to satisfy his needs. It hurts to learn you were just being used…a pawn…Disposable.

Other times, it’s short lived because you can’t change a leopards spots. I hate to say that because I believe God gives us the ability to change and be better, but as much as I trust God, common sense tells me to not stick my hand in the cages at the zoo.

I’d love to have coffee with him, hug him, hear him say that he’s genuinely sorry and that he loves me.

But he’s never said that.

And I am no longer that little girl willing to do anything to hear it.

So, I won’t respond to his message, but in case he’s reading this…I forgive you, every day, through the strength and the grace of God. I pray for you, specifically that God heals you from the trauma, pain, and illness in your life. I wish you the best, truly, I hope you live to glorify the Lord & find purpose in the path He wants to lead you down. I’m sorry that my lack of response isn’t what you hoped for, I know we are both used to me responding, but I just don’t feel God nudging me to reconnect. I hope you don’t let this bring you down if you’ve found peace and grace and forgiveness. Keep pursuing Him and all will fall into place like it should, in His timing.

A Love Letter Life | Book Review

a love letter life

I’m not a hardcore fan of the Roloff’s (the authors of this new book) and I received this book free to review in exchange for my opinion. Neither of these two things affected my review of “A Love Letter Life”.

The core principles that guide this book is solid and I’d recommend it to several of my younger friends & perhaps even my sisters once they are old enough.

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